I believe that you can not get what you want to get. Also, we can not control people as we want them to do for us. Everyone has story in her/his life, but sometimes is unbelievable. Therefore, I had a story with a friend who I just knew through the internet. Maybe it’s funny but it happened. I’m going to write about a person who I really had an experience with her by internet. Hopefully, you’ll know what kind of that person because I’m still not making sure about her.
Paloma who I’m writing about. She was born in Mexico where one of my favorite place to travel when I was a child. She is from a famous family in her country. She told me that and I heard from some friends of min. I met her in January 2007 by the internet by using some communication programs. First of all, I wanted to chat with people to improve my English skills, so it was normal to talk with her to get practice. We were talking about our normal lives as any small conversation. We were asking like “how long time I’m in the USA, what I’m doing there”. I wanted to see her picture, so she sent me some pictures of her. After many days, I asked her if she had a webcam. She answered me that her webcam was in her parents’ house. I felt comfortable with her because she started to say “Hi” to me many times. I did a strange method that I asked her if she has a cell phone No. I wanted to know more about her. She gave me her cell her phone number without frequency, and she wanted mine also.
Suddenly, one day, I had an event with my Arab students in place which is like bar. I got a call from unknown number. And it was her voice:
Paloma “Hey”
Nawwaf “ Hi “
Paloma “I’m Paloma. Did you remember me ?”
Nawwaf “Yes sure, How’re you ? good to hear you?”
Paloma “ Thanks, I actually would like to tell you that I’ll go back to my parent’s home, and I’ll bring the webcam next week to chat through it “
Nawwaf “ Thanks so much for your call,and I’m looking forward meeting you by webcam next week”
Paloma “ No problem, take care. Bye bye”
I was so happy when I heard her sound that she would bring the cam. She didn’t have to call me to tell me. I felt that I’m not for fun. I felt that I can have nice people who I’ve never met face to face by the internet. One month later we became very close. We became call each other many times. Sometimes I woke her up in the morning because we chatted too late. I didn’t want her to be absent because for me.
In March 2007, I had a spring break, so I decided to go to Mexico with my friend because Mexico country was in my dreams such as many countries. I told her that I would come to Mexico with a friend of mine, and I would like to introduce her myself when I come there. She was so happy when she heard that. I saw her eyes were like a person who had never seen his/her dear friends for many years. Therefore, she supported me more to come there. She called me many times when I went to her consulate in the USA. I told her that I got a Visa and now I need her help about the hotels in her country. She gave me a list of the best hotels in her country. I chose the hotels which I liked. After that, she called them to make sure that my hotel reservation was fine. She surprised me because she worked hard for me. We talked about the plans if she can travel with us. She loved to go with us. Therefore, she told me many nice places that she likes to go.
I arrived to Mexico. Then, I called her. She didn’t meet me at the first time because she told me that her mother was sick. I believed her because she should be with her mother. Three days later, I met her at six flags amusement park in Mexico City. The meeting was only 30 minutes. Then, I didn’t see her. I tried to call her, but she tried to avoid me by saying some excuses. I didn’t understand her because I trusted her. Then, I came back to the USA, and I tried to know the reason. She said” I didn’t feel comfortable when I met you here in Mexico”. However, I didn’t believe that, so I sent her that she should not judge anyone at the first time. I found out that she got a boyfriend. Therefore, she didn’t want me to get him confused. I decided to leave her because I respected her situation even she didn’t have to do that with friend. I had bad days without Paloma. I saw her online and she didn’t say “ Hey” like before. I was really disappointed that I missed a great friend easily. I felt bad because I’m lonely here in the USA, and she made many funny times. She was listening to me what I said and wrote. I missed her look because she made many cheers through the cam. In addition, she was always smiling. So I felt that I can be funny especially we all lived far away from our families. I know everybody needs to cheery up with a person who can do it. I felt I’m the person who could be nice to make her enjoyable through chatting.
One month later, and it was in April 2007. I was so sad because I heard news about my mother’s health, so I needed to go back as soon as possible. In April 21, 2007, I got a call. It was Paloma. She called me to make sure about my mother. My friend told her that about me. I thanked her for her calling. Fothmore , she wanted my country’s cell phone number because she would to call me there. I forgave her and I told her that her calling to ask me about my mother was the huge apologize and I wanted to return our friendship again. We had promised us that we’ll be real friends together. She surprised me that she would come to meet me in my birthday because she wanted to celebrate our birthdays together. Then, she became my wish to meet her in my birthday. We kept working together like before. Maybe more because we fixed our mistakes until I came back to the USA.
Finally, I went back to the USA. She sent me a voicemail that she would be online to see me. However, something happened between us. She made something that I did not expect it. She has been changed since I came back to the USA. She was not Paloma who I knew. She didn’t want to talk to me or even say anything. I asked her what happened. She answered me “ Don’t worry I’m okay. Everything is fine. Don’t ask me a lot”. Many days later, I tried to figure out the problem. She was very awkward. Then, she said “ your behavior to me is different than other girls”, so that’s why she became changed. She didn’t want to talk or even see me again. She severed our friendship because she though “ I love her”. Can you imagine that reader?.
I need to tell Paloma some words, and I want people to know the true ,and it’s coming from the bottom of my heart. “ Paloma, I admired you because of what you did for me. You returned our friendship by yourself. You called me many times, so I did the same thing because you were first. And now, our friendship boat is sunk by your behavior. I trusted you that you’re my real friend. I trusted you because you’d come to fix your mistake when you left me in your country. I knew everything that you didn’t have any exam two weeks ago. You should know what kind of person you’re. Also, you became my wish in my birthday. I want to tell you that you broke the promise. You broke my year’s law this year. You destroyed what I built. I built to continue our friendship forever. I can’t believe that there are many people like to tell lies. You didn’t care what the wish is. You didn’t care about what the wonderful things which you did for me. You were a seldom friend who I like to talk with. You should know that is not everyone who thanked you or wanted to do at least like you mean he needs something he supposed not let you think about it. I know that Paloma won’t come again because you decided to finish everything. I need to tell people that she was a great girl even she was lier. Maybe because she didn’t find anything to leave me except to say lies. I could say “ Paloma is gone , and no Paloma after what she did”.I didn’t pay attention when my friends suggested me to be careful from you. I’m paying everything now. You’re a selfish person because you think of yourself. In addition, you didn’t focus to think about what you’re for me. I’ll never forget you because I’ll remember that I had the worst year because my wish doesn’t care. You’ve a status in me, I hope you’ll have a wonderful life, and I hope you’ll be safe without thinking of these people who were thinking that they missed you. For me, I’ll remember nice days which we used to talk. I’ll let you feel comfortable, so I’m leaving you. I can’t convince people to be happy even they helped me. Good Bye forever, and have a peace life”
Well, this is my whole story with her. I’m sorry for writing a lot, but I didn’t feel that because I needed to explain many important sentences, and I need from the reader to know why Paloma won’t come to celebrate my birthday. I believe that it’s easy to have friends, but it’s impossible to keep going with them in your life because you find out many experiences from them which are you can’t see them at the first time. I hope everyone won’t be disappointed like me. Good luck
Written by Nawwaf
